To start with, Happy Thanksgiving!
I hope we all remember the wonderful blessings we have in this life and share them with those we love.
I spent thanksgiving at my sister's house and it was great. The whole family...well minus one who's off at school...came. It was fun.
In any case, I'm so thankful for everything I have, but I woke up this morning after having this great dream. One of those, this could be my life and why aren't I living it yet because now I wake up and feel like crap about myself because I got to see everything I ever wanted in this dream and now I don't have any of it. Yeah...it was a great dream, but see, that's the problem with dreams I guess, is that no matter how wonderful they are, you always end up waking up. I didn't even want to get out of bed at first because just thinking about the dream had me feeling depressed about myself, and looking at past relationships and just feeling a little down on myself. But thankfully, I'm not one to dwell too long on things that make me sad.
In about 2 hours, I am going to wake up, get dressed in layers upon layers of clothes, climb in a car, sleep, and drive with my dad and some other guys from church to New Jersey. There, we will help clear roads, gut houses, and whatever else they need us to do for the recovery effort from hurricane sandy. I'm really excited to start helping. Don't worry though, I'll update when I can. ....Not that anyone really reads this or anything....but anyways.
Time to try and sleep for the little while that I have left before its time to leave I guess...too bad I feel too wired to actually sleep...
Pixi
Friday, November 23, 2012
Sunday, November 11, 2012
Brake Fluid and Decorum
So, having been about...a week. I figured I would post again. I've learned some interesting things this week, like how to swallow a nasty pill of emotion when all you want to do is cry, but you can't because you have someone else you need to go take care of and talk to without letting them know that you're upset about whatever it is going on in your life. Yup. That was a tough one. But I apparently succeeded. I've also learned that the clutch of my car has a TEENY TINY leak. As in it's leaking brake fluid. So I need to make sure that I check that more frequently. Otherwise, my car doesn't like to go into gear. Not so good. Actually, VERY bad.
And finally, I've learned a little something about decorum. There are a million examples of how women can act with decorum, and my mother is probably one of the best examples to me in that facet. But I had the privilege of helping out at an event for another family, and sadly, felt a little embarrassed by some of the behavior that I observed. It was supposed to be a very special gathering for this family's daughter, and they wanted it to seem really formal, but it really was just....bad. I hate to say it, I mean the whole thing looked beautiful, but obviously not everyone got the memo.... The daughter at this event was a little less than gracious to some of the people that came and volunteered as well which, in my mind, was kind of disappointing and a bit of an appalling behavior in and of itself. I really wanted to be her friend and talk to her and get to know her, but she on being introduced to me, COMPLETELY ignored me. In the two days I was there helping, she never said "hello" or "thank you" or, well, anything at ALL to me. I wish there was something I could have done to change her behavior towards me, I understand that she was probably stressed or upset, or frustrated with the chain of events....and its a lesson to take to heart for me. One that says, I should check and evaluate my own behavior towards others and make sure that I am always treating them with kindness and respect, even when I may not be feeling so kind myself, I should always treat everyone judiciously.
In any case, its November, and lots of people are doing their "Thankful For" posts. And on top of that there is Veteran's Day. The thing is for me, pretty much any and every day should be veteran's day. I'm glad that our nation has dedicated 1 day to it, but there is so much more to it than that. Also there is a lot of arguing and frustration about the election. Honestly, all we can do now is pray. It is a sign of the times, the way that our country is progressing now, and all we can do is pray for those in charge that they will do what they believe to be best for this country, whether we agree with them or not. So, now, I'm done...there's a lot more I'd like to say, butt I actually have a room to clean, and everything that I'd like to talk about would take a life time. So, until next time.
*Pixi
And finally, I've learned a little something about decorum. There are a million examples of how women can act with decorum, and my mother is probably one of the best examples to me in that facet. But I had the privilege of helping out at an event for another family, and sadly, felt a little embarrassed by some of the behavior that I observed. It was supposed to be a very special gathering for this family's daughter, and they wanted it to seem really formal, but it really was just....bad. I hate to say it, I mean the whole thing looked beautiful, but obviously not everyone got the memo.... The daughter at this event was a little less than gracious to some of the people that came and volunteered as well which, in my mind, was kind of disappointing and a bit of an appalling behavior in and of itself. I really wanted to be her friend and talk to her and get to know her, but she on being introduced to me, COMPLETELY ignored me. In the two days I was there helping, she never said "hello" or "thank you" or, well, anything at ALL to me. I wish there was something I could have done to change her behavior towards me, I understand that she was probably stressed or upset, or frustrated with the chain of events....and its a lesson to take to heart for me. One that says, I should check and evaluate my own behavior towards others and make sure that I am always treating them with kindness and respect, even when I may not be feeling so kind myself, I should always treat everyone judiciously.
In any case, its November, and lots of people are doing their "Thankful For" posts. And on top of that there is Veteran's Day. The thing is for me, pretty much any and every day should be veteran's day. I'm glad that our nation has dedicated 1 day to it, but there is so much more to it than that. Also there is a lot of arguing and frustration about the election. Honestly, all we can do now is pray. It is a sign of the times, the way that our country is progressing now, and all we can do is pray for those in charge that they will do what they believe to be best for this country, whether we agree with them or not. So, now, I'm done...there's a lot more I'd like to say, butt I actually have a room to clean, and everything that I'd like to talk about would take a life time. So, until next time.
*Pixi
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